Last night I set about crafting the lamp for my Sorcery Illumination. I lamented for quite a while about what I would use for this purpose. At first I thought about a ring, as I have an excellent goldsmith that I have used for projects in the past. I decided against a ring because I rarely wear the ones I have, including my wedding band. I then thought about a pendant, which wasn’t a bad idea, I just didn’t have a terribly good way of crafting one that wouldn’t be the size of a cowboy’s belt buckle.
I finally decided on making a little pocket-sized trinket that I can either pack with me, or sit conspicuously within my normal line of sight. I made it out of polymer clay and a purple crystal that I’ve had for some time. The reason I chose that specific crystal was primarily for sentimental reasons. My wife bought it for me at a local casino at the very beginning of a wonderful, relaxing weekend of play. As my goal with my illumination is to handle stress in more effective ways, the thought of the peace, happiness, and relaxation is embodied in that crystal seemed like a perfect thing to draw on for positive energies.
The design of my trinket isn’t terribly complex. The clay comes up around about half of the crystal from the bottom, and resembles a broken eggshell. It has a simple circular base that it rests in, and the crystal sticks out of the top. The symbolism of the egg comes from when I was a child. I used to eat my breakfast while watching television, and I would get so lost in my thoughts and what was going on, that sometimes I wouldn’t have any recollection of having eaten. This is the same result that I want when I try to relax, especially through short-session meditation. I want to experience nothing but what I am focusing on, which is nothingness. I want to be so engrossed in the void that I have no recollection of the what is going on around me, even if I choose to slip into the void while sitting on a bench in a crowded place. That specific goal will take a while to achieve, but success will be just the first reward of such controlled thought.
I still have work left to finish the lamp; it needs to be embellished, painted, and run through my ceremony/meditation/bleeding ritual that seems to be working so well.
I’m currently preparing myself to follow the second step in the Liber KKK. Conjuration Two – Sorcery Divination will be an interesting test. As I have stated in a previous post, I’ve been a student of the tarot for a couple of years, and I am fairly comfortable with using it for divination. The Liber KKK recommends a simple method of divination so it isn’t too complex for Conjuration Seven – Shamanic Divination. At first I wondered if my knowledge of the tarot would allow me to continue using it through these two steps, but I can see now that it would be a recipe for disaster. While I am confident in my ability to interpret the tarot with surprising accuracy, it’s the speed of my method that concerns me. I like to lay out all the cards in whatever spread suits my needs, and then I look at them as a whole, not just their individual positions. This helps me spot trends and themes that run through a reading, which has been where some of the best information has come from. I’m afraid that if I have a successful “vision quest “, which is the goal of conjuration seven, that the imagery might come too fast for me to properly interpret, or it may be so subtile that I miss, or forget, it entirely.
So, my new search is to get comfortable with something much more simple, that can give me answers that can be readily interpreted in a matter of moments. I think this should give me a better tool to work with as I advance towards Conjuration Seven. I might just go with the suggestion of the book and use my set of runes. I’m not terribly familiar with them at this point, but with a bit of practice I’m sure I will get in a good rhythm with them. I now understand why the Liber says that people shouldn’t spend less than one year complete the training. As I am being honest with myself in this process, I’m finding out how much more there is to learn. Learning takes time, but it is always a solid investment of time. That’s why I went to college, that’s why I constantly refine my skills at work, and that’s why I try to learn as much about different beliefs as possible.