Conjuration Four – Sorcery Invocation

Dress different, act different, be different.

Sorcery Invocation is a simple concept really.  People instantly judge you based on how you look, act, and speak.  Once they make that judgement, it takes a long time to convince them otherwise.  Our minds tend to gravitate to what we already know, so not changing our mind about someone is a whole lot easier than changing it.

My wife likes to call a specific outfit that I have my  “Billy Badass “ gear.  It’s really nothing more than a pair of shoes and a leather jacket, but it changes my entire look so much that we have been fascinated over the years by the responses.  I know a lot of it has to do with my size.  At over 6 1/2 feet tall, and a little over 300 pounds, I’m a big, big dude.  When you throw me in a biker coat, shave my head, and throw on the work boots, I look like a totally different person.  I have been accused of being a bouncer, part of a rock group that was about to perform, a biker, and (my personal favorite) a professional wrestler.  The guy who thought I was a wrestler was so convinced that I was, that my attempts to deny it made him even more convinced that I was, and that I just didn’t want people to know.

With the county fair going on, I will have the opportunity to mess with the public at large for the entire weekend, and I’m sure the results will be fun.  At the Sorcery level, I have been playing with invocation for many years, only I never really knew what to call it.  I only knew that if I changed the way I looked, walked, spoke, and acted, I could get away with it every time.  I also clean up very well, and learned proper manners as a child, so I have performed my little stunt as everything from lowly ghetto thug to making friends (and having a couple of smokes) with the late, great Frank Kelly Freas at a $150 per plate awards banquet  I had no idea it would be classed as magic when I did it in the past, but it has provided me with some of the best memories of my life.

So, I’m not going to wait for my results from this weekend, I’m simply going to call it complete now that I have a better understanding of what it is I actually do.  I’ve been doing it for years, so (much like the tarot) it will be an ongoing practice of mine.

The new evocation…

With a much needed break in the madness of daily life, I decided to start another evocation last night.  My intent for this spell is to craft a fetish that will help my vision.  Not necessarily my normal vision, but the vision that our body uses to see things a bit out of the normal; like auras, spirits, and other such things.

After a lot of thought over the last couple of days, I decided to sculpt an eagle’s head.  The eagle has always been known for its sharp vision, and since a sharpening of my etherial vision is my intent, I thought it would be an appropriate representation.  Last night I did the clay work and fired it in the oven, so tonight I will start painting it with acrylics.  I hope to have it done before the weekend as I will have more time then to go through the process of imbuing it with energy and binding it to me.

The use of blood in magic…

The magic community seems to have a very large divide in opinion about the use of blood in magic.  Some people think it should be used sparingly as it can be dangerously powerful, others believe that it shouldn’t be used at all because it instantly opens up your spells to some sort of dark power.  I have my own philosophy about the use of blood, which is still being developed by testing and observation.

I had only a little bit of experience with magic before I started my training with the Liber KKK.  It mostly involved sigils with a bit of circle magic stirred into the mix.  I always wondered with this type of magic if the incorporation of blood would be a beneficial thing, and how one would even work it into the process effectively.  I slowly started to test the effects of sigils with and without the use of blood, and I noticed that my blood sigils tended to be more likely to succeed, and with a greater effect than my normal sigils.

As I started training with the Liber KKK I decided to work blood into my conjurations wherever I felt appropriate, and also the other methods I had learned to charge sigils effectively.  I guess that’s one of the things I really enjoy about Chaos magic, Carroll doesn’t give a lot of guidance, so you are forced to take your own beliefs and practices and use them to create your own personally distinct style of magic.  It just so happens that my personal style of magic uses blood in nearly every conjuration I do.

I strongly believe that if the blood isn’t yours, don’t bother using it.  According to my beliefs, the whole reason to use blood is to commit to the outcome of your intent with a sacrifice.  What have you sacrificed if you are using someone else’s blood?  Nothing.  Even if they willingly donate it, it really doesn’t serve any purpose unless the outcome of the spell is designed to target them, in which case: bleed away.  This also brings up the topic of intention.  Saved blood does you very little good.  For the most powerful effects, it needs to be drawn with intention for each different spell you are going to cast with it.  Much like in sigil use, the more broad you make the intent, the less effective it will become.

The final points that I thought I would bring up is the method and timing of acquisition of blood.  As I stated before, one of the big reasons to use blood is because it’s a sacrifice.  So, doing something that makes you bleed easily is a bit of a shortcut.  My preferred method is to make a fresh wound and draw out a bit of blood for my intended purpose.  I make it a bit of its own ritual, using my Athame to make the cut.  I never need much, typically a drop or two will suffice.  Part of the trick to it, is when you have to concentrate on wounding yourself, it helps push that intent into your subconscious.  You have to make sure you don’t go too deep, you don’t want to be too gentile or you will have to sit and hack on yourself all night, and all of that takes concentration, which takes your conscious mind off of your intent.  I find that bleeding myself can be its own form of gnosis.  I never just grab the knife, make a deep cut, and be done with it.  I’m very methodical in how I do it.  I take my time as my intentions are never to do major damage to myself, I just want to let out a little bit of my life essence to help me in what I do.  I also tend to do it as one of the final steps in my enchanting/binding/charging rituals.  It is a powerful finish, and with a gnosis-like secondary effect, it can help put the cap on the intentions of the entire conjuration.

Again, as with all Chaos Magicians, this is what I believe, and it may vary wildly when compared to what others believe, perform, and practice.  Take from it what you will, or take nothing.  It’s all just my point of view.  I just go with what works for me, and cast out what doesn’t.  There may be a time when I save the powerful effects of blood for special purposes, but at this point in my learning it is great to be able to have such strong effects that I can’t just attribute them to coincidence.

It’s not a lamp quite yet…

Last night I set about crafting the lamp for my Sorcery Illumination.  I lamented for quite a while about what I would use for this purpose.  At first I thought about a ring, as I have an excellent goldsmith that I have used for projects in the past.  I decided against a ring because I rarely wear the ones I have, including my wedding band.  I then thought about a pendant, which wasn’t a bad idea, I just didn’t have a terribly good way of crafting one that wouldn’t be the size of a cowboy’s belt buckle.

I finally decided on making a little pocket-sized trinket that I can either pack with me, or sit conspicuously within my normal line of sight.  I made it out of polymer clay and a purple crystal that I’ve had for some time.  The reason I chose that specific crystal was primarily for sentimental reasons.  My wife bought it for me at a local casino at the very beginning of a wonderful, relaxing weekend of play.  As my goal with my illumination is to handle stress in more effective ways, the thought of the peace, happiness, and relaxation is embodied in that crystal seemed like a perfect thing to draw on for positive energies.

The design of my trinket isn’t terribly complex.  The clay comes up around about half of the crystal from the bottom, and resembles a broken eggshell.  It has a simple circular base that it rests in, and the crystal sticks out of the top.  The symbolism of the egg comes from when I was a child.  I used to eat my breakfast while watching television, and I would get so lost in my thoughts and what was going on, that sometimes I wouldn’t have any recollection of having eaten.  This is the same result that I want when I try to relax, especially through short-session meditation.  I want to experience nothing but what I am focusing on, which is nothingness.  I want to be so engrossed in the void that I have no recollection of the what is going on around me, even if I choose to slip into the void while sitting on a bench in a crowded place.  That specific goal will take a while to achieve, but success will be just the first reward of such controlled thought.

I still have work left to finish the lamp; it needs to be embellished, painted, and run through my ceremony/meditation/bleeding ritual that seems to be working so well.

IO Chaos!

Moving forward with the Liber KKK…

I’m still moving forward with my Liber KKK training.  While I’m really excited to work towards later parts of the book, I think I’m moving a bit too fast.  I was rereading Liber Kaos today and ran across the portion where Carroll states that one success with a particular conjuration should be the minimum done, and he recommends that you have five successes before moving forward.  Throughout my college days, I was an A student.  it had nothing to do with being smarter, it was just a matter of dedication and effort.  I have a feeling that if I rush too fast through the foundation level portions of this training that I’m not going to truly have what I need to continue well with the process.  So, I’m going to relax a bit, do a few more enchantments, a few more evocations, some divining and continue work towards my illumination and invocation.

On that note, my Tarot cards are helping me choose the subject for my Invocation.  I haven’t quite narrowed it down yet, but I’m sure it will be a good choice.  For my first Illumination, I have decided that my lamp will be a necklace.  I will start crafting the pendant this week.  In the interim, I have tons to do with work, the new house, and a family that all need plenty of much deserved attention.

Conjuration Three – Sorcery Enchantment

So, I gave a serious stab at Conjuration Three last night.  The post I had yesterday inspired me to make something that would help me in my meditation.  I made a smallish figure out of modeling clay, who is seated with his legs crossed, meditating.  My intention is to have this enchantment help me when I meditate to allow me to reach deeper levels.  With modern modeling clay, and quick oven-bake times, it was a fairly simple process to complete, and the size of the figure meant I didn’t have to use much blood to anoint it.

The Liber KKK recommends two to three of this type of conjuration should be done per week, which I don’t think is an unreasonable request.  With time, this amount will decrease as I involve myself deeper within the book, and spend more time learning the ways of Chaos.  It was a fun and interesting conjuration to make, and with the excellent finish I’m putting on it, it will make a welcome addition to my office.