Are Ouija there yet?

I know my posts have becoming more sparse these days, but there have been a few deaths in the family, and some catastrophic data loss at work. If you want to talk about Chaos, have one rogue command run through and nuke the entire system tree of a Linux system. Ouch.

My ultra powerful focus is just about complete, it just needs to have the big ugly juju dumped into it, and then I can nuke things as I see fit. I know it’s probably a bad idea to have such a dark focus, but after I make a collection of other foci, it will just be one of the tools I have to work with.

My wife (one of the few I can trust to not be an ass) actually had the planchette on a Ouija board move for our first time. All we got was MS (with a loooong break between movements) when we were asking about the entities sex. My wife and I knew it was there, so we could skip a few of the normal introductory questions. After those two letters came out, the planchette moved itself off the board, so we figured it was done talking. We can take a hint.

I’ve done a bit of divining to help me understand some of the strange things that I have been hearing from above me (our department, etc), which has led me into some healing magic. Even though I’m in an ugly place inside, I think this one is pure enough to fire off correctly without some sort of dark twist. The poor lady has been through enough darkness with it that it might just help rifle her out of it if things get a bit strange.

My dreams have been awful, but that is attributed to the ptsd. My night terrors (and trying to carry my wife places) is supposed to be controlled by one of my new pills, but it’s not doing a damned thing for it.

I just roll with it, and so does my wife. There are a lot worse things that can go bump in the night than a drugged-out husband trying to find a urinal.

The focus will be done soon, then testing will commence.

I haven’t stopped my magic…

I know it’s been quite a while since I’ve posted on here, some of that due to medication shifts, and the other part due to people sticking to me like damned flies because there is “something wrong with me “. If that shit isn’t annoying, I have no idea what is.

My Dr. listed off a bunch of crap that’s wrong with me and made a med adjustment. Everything should be stable in a week or two.
On to magic. I have been spending the last few days building the most awesome magical focus I have ever done. I’m not going to make it something like a a servitor just because I think the damned thing would come out entirely uncontrollable.

What I’m making is the collaboration of all the work in Chaos I have done to this point. We all know that items can be created to augment, or enhance, our ability to cast spells. A servitor is nothing more than an example of this with a personality and a free-will based around the parameters and restriction locked into it upon creation. The problem with a servitor, is with all the variables involved in making one, the damned thing can do things you don’t want them to, and they are much harder to get rid of than they are to create.

So the idea of this focus is the mother-load of the darkest energy I have ever been able to pull out of my magical resources. It will channel a mother-load of the dark stuff right through it whenever a spell is cast. There are a few things that have gone into the building of it that are really interesting, and perhaps even unexpected to the readers of this blog. Does anyone remember my servitor Lazarus? The thing I failed to mention is that I saved his body. “Why would I do such a thing?! “, my wife asked. And the answer is very simple. Lazarus had a profound effect on the physical world, even thought he was one of earlier creations. Something about the way he was made, the way he was given life, and the way he synched with my personality, made him a small, but powerful ally. I’m not going to revive him from the ether, but I will try to use the same spirit of direct, measurable, physical control in what I do with this new focus.

The focus itself is very morbid, but it needs a few things before the ritual that will give it power. The variables need to be considered and restricted within the binding seal, the right ritual needs to be designed, and the will be a lot of blood. The restrictive seal cannot be done in blood his time. It needs to be something that cannot be removed in any way to keep this thing contained.

The only piece of the puzzle is to create it as a focus, or give it a form. Lazarus first started as a fetish, and was later converted into a servitor. That’s probably best with this thing, if it turns out as powerful as it as designed to be.

I know i’m not getting a real human skull for this one, but a man can always dream.

I’ll keep everyone posted as to the progress on the mother-of-all dark foci.