Last night I set about crafting the lamp for my Sorcery Illumination. I lamented for quite a while about what I would use for this purpose. At first I thought about a ring, as I have an excellent goldsmith that I have used for projects in the past. I decided against a ring because I rarely wear the ones I have, including my wedding band. I then thought about a pendant, which wasn’t a bad idea, I just didn’t have a terribly good way of crafting one that wouldn’t be the size of a cowboy’s belt buckle.
I finally decided on making a little pocket-sized trinket that I can either pack with me, or sit conspicuously within my normal line of sight. I made it out of polymer clay and a purple crystal that I’ve had for some time. The reason I chose that specific crystal was primarily for sentimental reasons. My wife bought it for me at a local casino at the very beginning of a wonderful, relaxing weekend of play. As my goal with my illumination is to handle stress in more effective ways, the thought of the peace, happiness, and relaxation is embodied in that crystal seemed like a perfect thing to draw on for positive energies.
The design of my trinket isn’t terribly complex. The clay comes up around about half of the crystal from the bottom, and resembles a broken eggshell. It has a simple circular base that it rests in, and the crystal sticks out of the top. The symbolism of the egg comes from when I was a child. I used to eat my breakfast while watching television, and I would get so lost in my thoughts and what was going on, that sometimes I wouldn’t have any recollection of having eaten. This is the same result that I want when I try to relax, especially through short-session meditation. I want to experience nothing but what I am focusing on, which is nothingness. I want to be so engrossed in the void that I have no recollection of the what is going on around me, even if I choose to slip into the void while sitting on a bench in a crowded place. That specific goal will take a while to achieve, but success will be just the first reward of such controlled thought.
I still have work left to finish the lamp; it needs to be embellished, painted, and run through my ceremony/meditation/bleeding ritual that seems to be working so well.