I have finally seen an aura…

Last night I got to see an aura for the first time. No, there were no chemicals involved (I actually have a strict policy against them), and it wasn’t a dream state or partial waking thing either. I was laying in bed with my wife, after a wonderful evening of tarot card readings, and finally got to see them.

My wife has been able to see auras since she was a child, and actually found it strange that most people don’t/can’t/won’t see them. It made her very uncomfortable with her ability, so she has never mentioned it that much. She said she always hated it when people found out she could see auras, because the first thing they would ask is,  “What does mine look like? “ Yes, it’s natural curiosity, but it did make her feel like a bit of a sideshow freak.

Out of respect, I have never asked her about my aura, and she has never offered up any information about it. After I saw mine last night, I also looked at hers. Without any previous collusion, she asked me what I saw. The thing that really blew my mind was we both saw the same thing. Exactly…the…same…thing! That’s astounding to me, and makes me think that there is something to it other than some optical trick.

Hopefully , seeing auras will get easier in time. Right now it takes a conscious act of will to make it happen, and a ton of concentration. After our brief round of it last night, my head hurt so bad I thought it was going to pop. Apparently, my method of seeing them pushes the boundaries of something within my body. My hope is that it acts like other parts of the body, in that it objects less if it is used more often.

Life without boundaries is awesome.

Rolling with the runes…

I have decided to go with the runes for my Sorcery Divination. It may be a while before I complete this step as I have to learn to interpret the runes, create a casting mat/table, and practice with them until I get fairly comfortable with reading them. I don’t see a reason why I can’t move forward in the training while still working on this one though. These steps don’t have to be done in order, but I would like to keep the groups of five together as much as I can. It seems logical to do all of my sorcery in a group before I move onto shamanism because it may require a bit of a mind shift to changes styles of magic on such a deep level.

I had a good idea about how to make a casting table though. There is a local vendor who will cut whatever I want into vinyl for a very reasonable fee. I can take my concept for casting mat and have it done up as a decal that in can apply to anything relatively smooth. This will allow me to make a semi-permanent surface to work with, and I can even use a relief of the same design in the future as a mask for different wood stain colors to make a permanent table, with a far cleaner look and feel than using a wood burner. I won’t make such a commitment until I am really comfortable with how well the design works for divining, as spending hundreds of dollars on a quality table and hours refinishing it seems silly until I know what I’m doing.

The search for divination…

I’m currently preparing myself to follow the second step in the Liber KKK. Conjuration Two  – Sorcery Divination will be an interesting test. As I have stated in a previous post, I’ve been a student of the tarot for a couple of years, and I am fairly comfortable with using it for divination. The Liber KKK recommends a simple method of divination so it isn’t too complex for Conjuration Seven  – Shamanic Divination. At first I wondered if my knowledge of the tarot would allow me to continue using it through these two steps, but I can see now that it would be a recipe for disaster. While I am confident in my ability to interpret the tarot with surprising accuracy, it’s the speed of my method that concerns me. I like to lay out all the cards in whatever spread suits my needs, and then I look at them as a whole, not just their individual positions. This helps me spot trends and themes that run through a reading, which has been where some of the best information has come from. I’m afraid that if I have a successful  “vision quest “, which is the goal of conjuration seven, that the imagery might come too fast for me to properly interpret, or it may be so subtile that I miss, or forget, it entirely.

So, my new search is to get comfortable with something much more simple, that can give me answers that can be readily interpreted in a matter of moments. I think this should give me a better tool to work with as I advance towards Conjuration Seven. I might just go with the suggestion of the book and use my set of runes. I’m not terribly familiar with them at this point, but with a bit of practice I’m sure I will get in a good rhythm with them. I now understand why the Liber says that people shouldn’t spend less than one year complete the training. As I am being honest with myself in this process, I’m finding out how much more there is to learn. Learning takes time, but it is always a solid investment of time. That’s why I went to college, that’s why I constantly refine my skills at work, and that’s why I try to learn as much about different beliefs as possible.

The Theban alphabet…

For those of you who may be unfamiliar with it, it’s just an alternate set of letters for the English language.  It’s not terribly difficult to learn, it just takes a bit of practice and persistence.  The reward you get from learning it is that casual observers will have no clue as to what you’re writing.  This can be great for taking notes about your magic, building a Book of Shadows, or just to unsettle people when they see it.  As of the time of this writing, there is even a bit of it in the site header on this page.

I had a desire to use Theban more in my daily life, so I set about making a font for it that I liked.  The ones that I found commonly available on the net had problems; they were missing letters instead of substituting, they left blanks if you used a capital letter, and other similar things.  So, I made my own font that should be fairly complete, and quite usable for just about everything.  I did have to manufacture a set of symbols for punctuation, numbers, and other such things, but it seems to all flow fairly well.  I don’t have any pro font software, so I just did all the characters by hand in iFontMaker on my iPad.  Feel free to download it and use it all you want.  There is no attribution needed at all, I just hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

Another fun idea to help you lean the Theban alphabet is to take a text file of something you know (book, story, article, etc) and convert it to Theban for reading.  I have done this with several different documents, and found it to be a great way to get some good experience using it practically.  I had to turn these documents into a pdf so I could read them on my iPad because ePub and other formats can only use device fonts.  Just to mess with people, I have a Theban KJV Bible on my iPad; I’m not sure why it bothers people so much, that book is in every other language on the planet.

Enjoy the font, enjoy the Theban copy of Genesis, and enjoy shaping reality to your will.

**Update:  The links to the font and the pdf were dead, so it’s now hosted in a new location.  PLEASE leave me a comment if the link is not working, it’s about the only way I’ll know. =D

Conjuration One – Sorcery Evocation

Last night I started my journey with the Liber KKK. The first part of the training is the sorcery area, and I started at the absolute beginning. I created two (as suggested as an alternative) different fetishes; one to implement force of will, and the other to bring me knowledge and information.

As my representation of the force of will, I made a coiled serpent, ready to strike. My information and knowledge fetish is a very simplified owl form. Both of these items were made out of candle wax, which I molded in layers while still in liquid form. Yes, it got incredibly hot, and the process required a few breaks for finger and hand cooling. After I was satisfied with the construction of my fetishes, I anointed them with my blood and placed them in a prominent place in my home, and named them Socrates and Lazarus. When I move into my new home, they will reside in my private office, making conversations with them much less awkward than doing it in front of the rest of the family.

I’m not sure about when to move on to the second conjuration, or if it’s even necessary. I have been a student of the Tarot for many years, and I am quite familiar with how the divination process works with them. I read the warning about it being too difficult to use during the shamanistic portion of the training, but my familiarity with the tarot would make it easier for me to interpret than a set of simple runes would. I like my rune set, but they provide such a simplistic set of answers compared to the Tarot that I find them vague and irrelevant.

I’ll ask Socrates and Lazarus how they think I should proceed.

About this blog.

This blog is about Chaos. Not chaos, but Chaos.

As Wikipedia puts it,  “Chaos magic is a school of the modern magical tradition which emphasizes the pragmatic use of belief systems and the creation of new and unorthodox methods.” The foundations are set forward in Liber Kaos by Peter J. Carrol. It’s worth buying a printed version. It’s a fabulous resource and training manual for anyone interested.

I don’t plan on going into religious debate, apologetics, or deep explanation of the underlying theories of Chaos, I’m just chronicling my own experiences.