Big, scary creatures…

It’s been an event-filled couple of months since I last posted.  My New Year’s resolution wasn’t to update this blog every day, which is a good thing because I’d have failed before it even started.  I’m doing a year-long art project that has been sucking up all of my time, but I have really enjoyed doing it.  Needless to say, other things have been getting missed…like updates to this blog.

No apologies, there have just been limited hours in the day and this isn’t at the top of my priority list.  I have said a few times since my last post, “Oh!  I have to put that on the blog!”  So, this isn’t out of my mind in any way, just out of reach for the most part.

What are these things I’ve been wanting to blog you might ask?  I might tell you that there are some pretty interesting nuggets of information and experiences that have been happening.  The first is a continuation of the story from my last post.

We have been fairly successful at keeping this dark entity out of our house, but not out of our lives.  It has to ‘pull strings’ from a distance, rather than getting to waltz into our place and directly manipulate the situation.  About a month ago, he decided to try a new tactic and send in a friend.  I’m not usually sensitive to an entity being present.  Unless it’s being overly obnoxious, is very strong, or wants to make itself known, I have to consciously make an effort through different means to know of a presence.  I’m getting slowly more sensitive over the years, but I’m still very, very weak with it.

My daughter and I were cleaning up the holiday decorations and all of a sudden it hit me.  I had ‘the itches’.  ‘The itches’ are a strange phenomenon that I have only ever gotten in two different ways.  The first was when I would push through the mental/physical wall that would appear when running 3+ miles when I was younger.  Other than running, the only thing that has ever caused them is when I expend energy quickly in my magic.  Taking ornaments off of a tree is not physically demanding, and there was nothing magical about lifting up little ornaments and putting them in a box.  I was just having a light conversation with my daughter and the itches hit me like a train.

When I would run they would come on slowly, and usually if magic is involved they come quickly, but they do take a minute or two to fully manifest.  Not this time.  It felt like someone had shoved a needle into every pore on my back simultaneously.  It actually made me call out a little bit between the pain and the surprise of it.  The stabbing went away quickly (as it usually does) and turned into intense, almost painful itching.  It was the most severe cases I have had of them too, and it’s the first time I have had them without a known cause.  I knew I wasn’t running in my living room (I haven’t run in years), and I sure as hell didn’t fire some sort of ‘clean my house’ spell.  If that worked I would have done it years ago.  Not wanting to startle my daughter or anyone else, I just went about my business and started sleuthing about after her bed time.

To make a long story short (It’s a new thing I’m trying. lol), between my wife’s abilities and some quality reading from the cards, it turns out our entity buddy sent a ‘friend’ to “observe and assess” what was going on with us.  I used quotes because those were the words that things narrowed down to during our evening of investigation.  The entity wasn’t hostile like our little family friend is, which is a good thing.  Why?  Because he was a BIG boy.  He had a fairly neutral energy, which is good because there was a LOT of it.  More than anything C had encountered before, and bigger than anything I had experienced outside of the astral.  It turns out that my big, powerful ‘itches’ was just him taking a bit of energy, and I was handy.  It was nothing personal, it was just a little energy feed.  You know, so little that I think it was the single largest expenditure of energy I’ve ever had.  That’s why I’m glad that thing wasn’t hostile.

As the cards said, he didn’t stay long (about four days total) and then he went wherever incredibly powerful, neutral entities go in their spare time.  We have no solid way of knowing what became of his little visit and the information/assessment, or what our dark entity pal is doing with that information, but the cards regularly indicate that things are in the works.  Some of them we catch, some of them we don’t until after they happen.  Those are the ones that take the work to clean up.

On a more positive note, I have been working on healing a lot more lately and the results are encouraging.  A lot of it stems from our little experiment last Summer where we did the emotional transfer between C and me.  We have since found out that this is called an ‘aura merge’; not my favorite name, but better than ‘that thing we did at M’s funeral’.  This opened up a whole new realm of possibilities with energy manipulation and healing that we hadn’t had access to before.

It may sound simple, but it’s a pretty big deal for me.  I’m one of those people who has to be convinced in his mind through trial and error that something can work, and ‘healing’ in general has produced poor results for me in the past.  This new concept seems to be working and takes minimal energy from me.  It’s more of a ‘realignment’ of the energy people already have, rather than trying to force the energy where it should be.

Anyway, there are lots of little nuances to those more major things that have gone on, but I’ve given a fairly good overview here.  I hope everyone who got hit by those monster storms has been able to stay away from harm.  We’re having a warm winter here, which may seem awesome, but we’re getting such little water that agricultural production could be reduced by a significant amount over previous years.  That’s bad for our local economy, so we’ll hope for a good slamming of snow in the mountains like we got over the weekend.


A blog by any other name…

One of the recurring themes in this blog is that there is a dark entity that enjoys my wife and can be quite bothersome.  I’ve mentioned him before, and even gave some vague information as to some of his doings.  He’s one of the reasons I became a practitioner of the occult rather than just confining myself to the study of it.  I still enjoy my studies, but in a conversation with C the other day I noticed something odd.

I have spent countless hours reading blogs, I currently have 32 different books in my occult/spiritual library and have read every one of them, and I participate in a couple different online communities (those are a bit spotty).  The one thing that I have noticed after all this time is there is very little mention anywhere about the ‘darker’ side of all of this.  Sure, there are some old grimoires you can get your hands on that will tell you to boil a live cat, but that’s not what I’m talking about.  What I mean is that very few people talk about the big problems.  If they mention anything negative (especially in the newer books) they usually gloss over it and tell you to do a banishing ritual or make your chakras glow.  Then they get back to the business of telling you how wonderful everything can be with magic, spirituality or other flavors of woo.

Now, I agree that keeping a positive spin on things is good.  Also, posting information about how to do rotten things to people can be a bit dangerous to everyone involved.  I have just noticed that there is a serious lack of caution about what really is lurking on the other side.  Yes, there are kind and benevolent entities and energies out there, and those are definitely a good thing to focus on.  Those kinds of energies tend to keep the rotten ones away because you’re surrounding yourself with something very positive,.  The little annoying dark entities tend to avoid that like the plague as there are too many easier targets out there.

What they don’t talk about enough, in my opinion, is that ‘dark side’.  I know that ‘downer’ books don’t sell, so I know why they don’t put much (if any) reference in them, but there are people who come to the occult looking for answers to problems they already have.  There are also those that start to play in the darker side of things and don’t know what to expect.  So, I guess my blog is one of those exceptions to the rules.

The last thing I want to do is sound like an angst-filled rebellious teenager that wants to piss off a set of staunchly religious parents.  I listen to myself in conversations with C and others and sometimes I have to stop and think about how entirely ridiculous it all sounds.  This blog is probably considered to be one of the biggest piles of delusional, wooist nonsense that exists on the internet.  Then I think about everything that has gone on with C and me over the years, and it brings me sharply back into focus.  We have done our experiments, C and I have blind-tested each other with shocking results, and we have admitted when things have worked and when they haven’t.  None of this would I provide as ‘evidence’ that anyone else should even believe in the things that I do as experiences don’t tend to count in that type of thing.  But to have lived all of this myself, having approached it with an objective mind, and being the biggest skeptic of my own experiences, I am still led to conclusions that I would deem ‘madness’ had I not experienced them all myself.

All of that being said, people interested in the occult, or even spirituality in general need to understand clearly that there is a second side to every coin.  There are unpleasant, malevolent forces out there in there ether.  There are lots of different names people give them based on personal beliefs or the way the entity behaves.  There are also energies that are ‘dark’ in their nature.  Yes, most practitioners steer clear of them, and for good reason.  Just as positive forces can bring about positive results and entities, negative energies can bring about the opposite.  Practice wisely.

This still leaves us with the problem of the few that encounter these darker forces without having brought it upon themselves.  There are entities who look for positive people and do bad things, there are some that attach to people with natural gifts and feed off of them, and some people just get unlucky and bump into the wrong thing at the wrong time.  With a lack of information out there, one is left to a long road of experimentation to handle these kinds of situations.  I’ve heard plenty of the ‘command it to leave’ and ‘just surround yourself with positive energy’ advice, and it works well on little nuisances, but the big ones are far beyond that.  A blanket of happy thoughts is not enough to keep people safe from them, nor is a simple act of banishment.

I feel really bad for people that are in this situation because that’s where I started.  In my time of heavy practice we have managed to stop the physical interactions (for the most part), and he has moved on to manipulating things from a distance.  To the ‘help there’s something in my house’ perspective, most people would see him as ‘gone’ since he doesn’t do things in our presence anymore, but he’s still there.  It has only changed the way he interacts.  he has been ‘driven out of the house’ for the most part, but he’s still there in the wings; pulling strings and manipulating people.  So, yes, we have made progress, but everything is far from solved.

How would someone that is not heavily involved in the occult handle such a problem?  For me the answer was to embrace the occult so I could fight fire with fire, but I know that can’t be the answer for everyone.  At some point I will find a way to finish our business with him, but it could still be years before things are fully resolved.  Things may never be fully resolved.  So how would the average person handle it?  The answer is, they couldn’t.  They would need outside help.  If they found the wrong help it could anger an entity and make things worse (read a couple interesting stories about that), which is obviously not a good situation.  If they have someone help them and they only push it back beyond arm’s reach, then they would think things are resolved, even though the entity would still be present.  I see that as a dangerous.  Our situation is probably worse now than it was when he would physically interact with C simply because he’s had to get more creative, more complex, and more subversive.  This means that the things that he does have a bigger punch to them and they’re harder to see coming.

Even with help from someone that could fully resolve the situation, it could take months or years to help someone with a large entity problem.  That’s a ton of time and effort to give to someone who will most likely not see the results after a point.  After a while it would seem like you were just stringing them along if they didn’t have any way to sense the entity themselves.  I guess C and I are lucky in that regard.

I guess the whole point of this is to warn people who think magic can be all wine and roses that there really is an ugly side of things.  It doesn’t mean you’ll necessarily have problems with it, but it’s out there and it does happen to good people who have done nothing to invite it.  There is a serious lack of information out there about what to with something that’s a big problem, and I’m not much help there yet either.  I have the structure for many things, but figuring out how to actually implement some portions of the magic involved is a very difficult and long process.

This wasn’t intended as a dire warning of impending doom to anyone that encounters the spiritual.  As a physical-world analogy, think of it like this:  No matter how safe of a driver you are, no matter how cautious, the other drivers on the road can still cause you problems.  Even if you choose to not drive to be ‘safe’, things happen to pedestrians, bicyclists, and sometimes people drive a car through the front of a convenience store.  It’s just a part of the reality of being alive and having cars on the road.  Most of us will never encounter anymore than just a little fender-bender, or some jerk cutting us off, but there are times when the video that gets posted on YouTube makes us wonder how reality can get so strange.

Just keep your eyes open, and if something does go wrong, do your homework and try to understand it.

Be well,


The infamous 100th post…

Well, November is gone, which means that I can be a human being again, rather than a NaNoWriMo obsessed typing machine.  This year I actually succeeded in my 50,000 word goal, and had it blown away by the end.  Is the book done?  No.  I’m only at about the halfway point.  Is the book good?  Who knows.  That will only be known if I ever finish it and let someone read it.  The important part is that the book is coherent, the characters are not complete cardboard cutouts, and I have a clear path to the end.  So, it was a good month of writing and gave me quite the needed confidence boost when it comes to that sort of thing.

So, with that done, on with the show!

Can you believe it’s the 100th post?  It works out to a little less than a post a week since this blog was started.  Of course, they have been sporadic for a myriad of different reasons, yet here we are anyway.  I went back a read my first few posts and it helped me realize how far I’ve really come in my practice.  I don’t know how things are for others, but every time I do something, successful or not, it brings me more questions than answers.  Even after all these years I have a huge list of things that I still need to try, test, and learn about.  I’ve had a bad habit lately of reading too many books.  While not normally considered a ‘bad’ thing, they have just made the laundry list of what I need to explore a lot longer.  Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy it.  It just makes me laugh sometimes how I can always seem to create more for myself to do than I can possibly get done.

Word is spreading slowly in my personal circles that my wife and I don’t quite fit the molds that everyone else does.  This, of course, has led to people keeping us a little more at arms-length, but that’s quite fine.  We’re both very non-social people in person so it’s been nice to not have to do as much to maintain those relationships.  Social situations are difficult for both of us, so a touch of standoffishness is a welcomed gift.

As word slowly spreads there are whispers of ‘that’s not real’, ‘both of them are just crazy’, ‘they’re going to hell’, and other fun references that we promptly ignore.  But as the word has spread, these same people who want less to do with us, for whatever their personal reason is, also have been having a new kind of conversation with us.  It’s usually a phone call or text that starts with ‘Can I ask you something and have it stay between us?’

For all of their doubt and religious judgement, when something happens that they can’t explain they come to us.  We’ve had questions about entity attacks, bumps in the night, and even requests for tarot readings.  It seems that everyone that is so quick to reject our beliefs is a lot more comfortable with them when they become useful.  We have found with a couple of them that, after we talk about things or give them a hand with something, they realize that we’re not playing a game, we’re not teenagers that want to rebel against some societal norm, and we’re not doing our thing under the control of some ‘devil or ‘demon’ or whatever it is that they fantasize as the invisible bad guy.

We’re just looking for answers to questions that we have, and the path towards those answers is along a road less traveled.  That’s all.

I guess the point of this rambling is that there seems to be a small clutch of people out there that are fascinated by all of this, but they’re still terrified of it.  Other than online, I have never willingly admitted to anything that I do.  My wife is always the one that outs me, and I refuse to talk about specifics with anyone that I know in person.  I tend to be vague or use analogy if they insist on speaking about what I do, but I will have limited conversations about some of the topics surrounding it.  I’m still a bit defensive about the whole thing I guess.  It’s a natural reflex when you live in a very conservative, religious town.

How is the practice itself going?  Good question.  Sometimes I forget that it has become a part of my everyday life; so the reading, the journaling, and the small work of all of it doesn’t really seem notable like it did in the beginning.  When I first started this blog, a couple hours of thought dedicated to Chaos and related happenings was worth of a blog post, these days it’s just part of who I am.  I have reminders of my beliefs and practice sprinkled throughout my house and I’m comfortable in what I do, so there isn’t really a second thought given to being in that mindset now.  Perhaps that means I’ve going from ‘practicing’ to ‘being’, not that it matters.

In the last month the holidays have taken their time, new video games have taken a slice, writing has taken its time, but somehow I actually got a bit of spiritual work done in there.  My brother-in-law and sister-in-law are both big ‘you guys are kooks’ believers, but that has changed.  He, loving Christian soul that he is, was attacked by an entity.  So, my wife’s phone started getting filled with texts from her sis, concerned not only about the attack but that it seemed to change his personality after it happened.

I told them to look for answers within their own faith (prayer, etc) since I operate outside of their normal comfort zone.  Turns out they did but it didn’t help.  So, my wife and I were asked for guidance and intervention into both the attack and the attitude change.  It turned out to be no big deal, just a one time attack, so we didn’t have to do anything to chase it off.  The attitude shift was another thing though.  The entity that attacked him was a strong one and left physical marks on him.  This not only flipped his reality of what can and can’t happen, but it also left a bit of a taint on him from the encounter.  Sadly, I can’t do anything about either unless people are willing to cooperate.  I can’t tell you what’s going on if your faith doesn’t allow you to accept the answers, and I can’t do anything about a spiritual residual left behind if your rules are ‘whatever you do, it can’t involve me’.  So, as we knew it would, it wore off and he returned to his previous state.  All I could have done was sped up the process a little.

It seemed odd to me though that someone would come to us for help but not be willing to be a part of the solution.  That would be like going to a doctor and telling him that you couldn’t be involved in the treatment.  The good part of the whole thing is that C and I had a chance to look at how things were interacting with others rather than being left with just our own experiences.  Those kinds of learning opportunities don’t come along terribly often, so it was all time well spent.

I suppose that’s it for the 100th post.  Nothing too exciting.  I still have some big projects coming up with regards to my magic, but they are long-term things.  I’m still working on effective use of magic within the astral.  My biggest problem is measuring it.  If I try Astral -> Physical magic I can look for results that I can measure and analyze.  Astral -> Astral magic though, not so much.  Everything within my meditation is subject to question just because of the nature of the mind and suggestibility.  So how then does one measure Astral magic results?  It’s a conundrum, and currently one of my biggest projects.


Kiss November goodbye…

I thought I would make a post real quick saying that I’m probably not going to be posting in the month of November. Why? NaNoWriMo!!!
Haven’t head of it? Well, it’s about the nuttiest thing a person can do in my opinion. The goal is to start on November first and reach a goal of 50,000 words by the end of the month. Hopefully you have a completed short novel at that stage, but if not you should at least have a good chunk of a bigger novel finished.

For those of you that find this kind of thing interesting, is where you’ll want to head. There are lots of local events and online resources to help you get going, even if you’re coming in right before it starts.

I attempted a NaNo in 2008 while I was still in school and working full time. Needless to say I came out with about 30,000 words of useless nonsense. The good news is that I learned some awesome lessons, even if some of them were only ‘good ideas on ways not to write a book’.
The book will have nothing to do with chaos at all. This one will be pure fiction (although many people see Chaos that way) and will be entirely mundane. I really don’t want to try and shoehorn this wacky stuff into a novel that doesn’t call for it.

I’m taking a different approach to my writing this time as this will be my seventh attempt at completing a novel. My ‘normal’ method hasn’t worked six times, so I think it’s time to change things up a bit.

In Chaos news, I have compiled a bunch of stuff together and have considered the novelization of my experience in working with Chaos. I don’t know if it will work out, or if I even really want to do it, but it’s something I’ve been tossing around. Just my typed journals come to over 61,000 words, and I have five(?) written journals that I have kept over the years too.

I just thought a novel would be an interesting way to introduce a larger audience to Chaos as opposed to yet another ‘how to’ book that ends up on Amazon or (if you’re lucky) the occult section at Barnes & Noble. Movies and novels have always been an interesting way to throw concepts at the uneducated public to make them ‘want to learn more’ about a subject.

Again, I’m getting ahead of myself. It’s not something I’m actively working on, just something I’ve considered and did some ‘how much crap do I already have’ exploring into. The one thing I have never done is try to make money off of my Chaos practice in either selling the information, advertising on this site, or putting out some ‘book of shadows’ for teenagers to mess around with. I’ve always felt that the monetization of what I do would somehow cheapen it.

Perhaps I’ll just do a ‘collection’ or something that encompasses a similar scope to this blog and put it out as a free eBook or something. That way I can spread information around without being poked into that ‘sheister’ realm that many authors seem to slip into.

Anyway, I’m going to be writing like a nut over the next few weeks and will be shunning friends and family in the name of a novel. I’ll see you back in December. Hopefully I’ll still be in one piece.


Finally getting my legs back under me.

Well, after a serious medical scare with C, things seem to finally be getting back to normal.  I’ve been doing a lot of reading lately on how the mind can affect the physical well-being of the body, and I’ve been doing one of my favorites and reading more about Buddhism.  The concepts of Buddhism always give me a lot to ponder and tend to help me understand the nature of people much better.  Perhaps this is the wrong place to write on such a topic, but I just thought I would hand out credit where credit is due in my own development.

Albeit small, I’m finally getting another place dedicated to my meditation.  It’s a bit small for some of the magical work I like to do, but having a little secluded hideaway for meditation and reflection is something that I have been missing since the loss of my private study.  With the shuffling of the function within the house now that we have a room freed up it will also open up one room dedicated to yoga and other exercises.  We’ve always bitched about our house being too big (4 bedroom, 3 bath), but I think we’re finally finding a use for the additional space.  I know….first world problem.

Having dedicated, private space in the past has really helped me to make great strides in my development on a spiritual level because it’s simply convenient.  If I can hop in and meditate without a bunch of furniture/stuff shuffling I’m far more likely to do it.

We still have the issue of the entity lurking about, but compared to issues of physical health he is nothing at this point.  He may be an influencing factor, but a good western doctor that also believes in complementary treatment through eastern medicine is a total-body combination that seems to have worked well for us over the past couple years.  Now that the physical is on the mend with C, we can focus on the mind/body for sustained healing and long-term wellness.  Part of that may be finally dealing with this entity, but that’s ok.  At least she’ll have the physical and mental wellness available to help her through the process.

Things are a bit different in Texas…

I’m a couple thousand miles away from home, so what better time to try. Some new tricks with entities I’ll never encounter again.
The first thing that I will say is that San Antonio Texas has a lot different activity in its downtown than I’m used to. Our area has lots of wanderers. Just random entities cruising around with different emotions. Some are lost, angry, or even just stuck in their home town for no apparent reason.
The other trick to doing any kind of work at home is my wife, C, is usually at home. She seems to light up like a beacon in the night so I fall into the background noise and am, not noticed as much.
Fire off some solid astral juice in San Antonio and things seem to take notice. I did a standard meditation and decided to do some astral travel but on a local basis. I spent a lot of time looking at myself in the physical and astral trying to confirm/deny some information had read lately and wasn’t having much luck.
I’m my brilliance I decided to travel to a nearby location and fire off a big burst of energy just to see what would happen. Well…shit happened. In the astral I got kicked by a surge of power and over me the sky looked like there was a funnel cloud coming down. I shot back to my room because I had no idea what was going on, but the spiritual energy was palpable.
The next thing I know I was having physical contact in my hotel room. They were just dark wispy hands, but I could feel them touching me. It was a good opportunity to try a technique I’ve been working to combat such things, and it was met with some, yet limited, success. It wasn’t anything too freaky, just a rare (for me) encounter on a physical level.
I didn’t try and communicating with it, I wanted to see if I could force it to go away. The one entity it worked on, the other seemed to pay me no mind. The one that I got rid of had ahold of my arm while the other kept messing with my face for some reason. I could feel the sensation in the physical and see the wispy tendrils in the astral. I MIGHT give things another go over the next couple nights to see if I can refine techniques with things that won’t have any kind of a chance of following me home. These two seemed to want something. It felt Ike they just wanted some energy, but there is no way to be sure at this point.
Apparently I can light up like a beacon when I don’t have my wife around to look more inviting than I do. I also tried to light up Ike a beacon which seemed to work.
Magic is all baby steps. It will be interesting to see what I stumbled on tonight and how I can use that in the future.


An absence of posts is not an absence of activity…

It’s been awhile since my last post, but a lot has gone on since then.  There are just some things that are a little too strange for words.  Yes, even for me.

Something big happened.  I mean really big.  So big that it’s made me take an honest look at myself to see if I need to be back on medications.  If you wrote the story of this whole thing and sent it to a publisher they would laugh if you wanted to put it in the non-fiction section, even though the story would be the real deal.

Without going into too many details (you wouldn’t believe me anyway) I will say this:  I have learned over the past few weeks that if you have a powerful, negative entity that is determined to manipulate someone, they can do more than you ever imagined to get that done.  This isn’t about throwing plates around your house or giving you the chills every time you walk past a bookshelf or something, this is far bigger than that.  This story involves a being that has been in pursuit of someone over multiple lives and has manipulated people and events over the course of decades to orchestrate a single event.  An event so bizarre that I’m not even sure it would make a good novel.

Luckily, thanks to some information from the ether, the event was narrowly avoided.  Now the entity is pissed.  Really, really pissed.  We’re not sure what it’s next move is, but if it’s anything like the last one we’ll never see it coming until it’s right in our face…perhaps not until after it’s hit us.  Part of the problem in the middle of all this is C’s spirit guide (whom she has never met) was unknowingly used as a tool in this and we’re not sure if he’s ok.  Also, I was informed by my guide that I’ve outgrown her and need to find a more powerful one.  That leaves us with two people caught in the thick of this nonsense that need to find new allies and we can’t even trust a new ally if we find one.  Why?  We’ve dealt with bad advice before and there is no reason that we couldn’t end up playing right into this other entity’s hands if we aren’t insanely careful.

I know I’m being incredibly vague, but I have to right now.  If I think about this stuff too much there is a part of my brain that just RAILS against it.  I have always been a skeptic and this situation is just too much for me at times.  I know that the pieces have all fallen together, and there are things that have happened that I can’t deny, but that logical, skeptical part of my brain is still trying really hard to convince me that I’m a nut.  Why?  it would honestly be easier to accept that I’m crazy than it would be to accept all the events that have gone on.  I wonder at this point in my life if I would consider taking a pill that would make it all go away and turn me back into a mundane, oblivious little peon that just coasts through life without having to worry about this nonsense.

I’ve done enough work trying to find answers over the last few weeks that it has been draining.  I think the one night I did over a dozen readings on a series of questions, I’ve meditated/traveled to consult with my guide, and I’ve even read a couple new books in the interim.  It’s such a big deal that there is no choice for it to do anything but consume my life at this point.  C and I keep it under wraps until after little N goes to bed, but it has dominated every conversation after that, and text/messaging during the day for weeks now.  The truly scary part is that we know it’s not total BS at this point as we’re starting to get medical evidence of some of the answers we got from our work over the last few weeks.

It’s entirely terrifying just because C and I have been into this stuff (different parts, same concept) for a while now and have bumped into some pretty ugly entities.  But this thing is unreal…it’s not even in the same class as what we have dealt with in the past.  It’s not leeching energy or causing little mischievous problems, it’s manipulating the lives of multiple people to change the future paths of incarnations of itself and others.  This thing is a big, big deal and can cause changes in the way events happen on a large scale.  I’d rather deal with a dish-rattler.

I don’t know what else to say about it right now.  Perhaps I’ll share the full story when we’re not still in the trenches fighting this.  I’ll be gone for about five days at a conference, so it will be nice to get away from everything for a little bit.  It may sound selfish to be glad to walk away for a couple days, but I need it right now.  This thing is bound to C so it won’t be coming with me.  If it does, I hope it doesn’t mind seeing me in a swimsuit at the hotel.